so come on and fly with me as we make our great escape

a new chapter.
Tuesday, July 12, 2011 4:48 PM

a new chapter.

so, i've obviously left this space for quite some time already

more than half a year!

i've been having moments where i just want to blog everything out

good, or bad..

but i just always wanted to leave this space

and always got lazy to do it..

so now, im finally getting down to it

and moving on..!:)

here's to a new space, and to better beginnings! xx

Labels: happy.

losing faith
Tuesday, December 14, 2010 11:49 PM

losing faith.

with each day passing

im losing faith.

living in denial

of a miracle.

hopelessly waiting

shunning

hiding

blocking

denying

i'm growing fatigue.

it's too much,

and i dont want any of it.

ANY OF IT.

why cant everything come to a standstill?

this time not cos i wanna embrace what is now,

i just want to get away from every single fucking thing,

every single fucking person.

i want to fast forward to something better.

shit happens,

and i cant deal with it, i'll admit it

this time, i'm just not strong enough

have you ever felt useless, unworthy, just simply not good enough

no matter how hard you've tried?

you just cant do anything right? or it's never seen?

im sick of deluding myself.

im sick of living in pure denial

im sick of trying to live in oblivion,

when the facts are right there

staring in my face.

im confused,

im troubled,

im hurt,

stabbed, tortured, tormented, mind-fucked

lies, deceit, false fronts

i just want to hide in some corner.

i just want to be in a shell of my own.

i just want to escape.

i dont want to have anything to do with anything or anyone and i just want to crawl away.

i just need silence.

i just want to leave.

i just dont want to be tormented anymore.

everything's a joke.

my life is a pure fucking joke.

the walls are slowly crumbling

and im just a victim waiting for the walls to collapse

nothing.is.fucking.the.same.anymore.

what.the.fuck.happened?

why doesnt someone just tell me what is ahead of me?

cos right now,

its just all a mess

all a blur.

i just want to leave this fucking planet.

Labels: emo thoughts.

dead end.
Tuesday, December 07, 2010 12:31 AM

dead end.

i've come to a dead end.

a dead end for everything that is revolving around me..

i surrender,

i give up

i am tired of everything.

i.just.want.to.breathe.

i just want to be happy again..

it's tough hiding under this hard exterior,

and i feel like i'm constantly crumbling as the days go by.

it feels like it's pitch black,

and im finding my way out of this mess.alone.

goodbye.

Labels: emo thoughts.

372 ♥
Tuesday, October 26, 2010 12:48 AM

372 ♥

so yes its been 372 days of being together with THIS AWESOME BOY!:

(exactly one week from being a year together!)

and all i can say is:

thanks for making the past 365 days so awesome and wonderful!:)
(you know the rest!:)

im not perfect, im not awesome, im not great, im not special..
BUT YOU ARE!

ily! ♥

when i see your face,
there's not a thing i would change
cos your beautiful
JUST THE WAY YOU ARE! ♥

♥ ♥ ♥

(THIS POST SO CHEESY (meltzx and stickxz), BUT IDC IF THE WORLD JUDGES! I LOVE YOU!:))

Labels: love.boyfriend.happy

time is running fast
Friday, September 17, 2010 2:27 AM

time is running fast

clock's ticking,
time's racing,
and all i can think of is you.

for a moment,
i dont know what i want anymore.

tell me.
show me.
reassure me.
i need to know./

Labels: thoughts.boyfriend.

everything's moving so fast, i cant keep up
Thursday, August 26, 2010 7:40 AM

everything's moving so fast, i cant keep up

hello world!

time passes really really fast!
like its exams next week!
!&!^&!%^@%#@#

havent even studied pls.
zomg.
kill me alrzxzx.

anyhooxzx.
just some retarded lame updates

sat.
lh came down to meet me after workkk
thennn omg i cant rembbbzxzzx oops!

sun.
SLEEP IN DAY:D
had a heavy breakfast thenn
we went out!
got koi!:D:D:D
(the boy finally heartzx heartzx koi!)
thenn to marina areaxz
he got new shoes:Dvery preets!:)
and i bought a ring -.-
ikr shoe vs ring:(
feel damn sad i cldnt find anything else to buy zzz
thennn we met dadd for dinner at chatterbox
thennnn homeeeeee
the boy stayed overr:)

mon.
worked.

tue.
worked.met the boy!stayed overrrrr at his:)

wed.
no workkkk for the both of us!:DD
went to bpp for macs lunch! (tsk stoopid nehneh boy!still sick and wna eat mcspicyyy allll >:()
went to my place to get some stuff
went to get tickets for the expendables
walked ardddzxzxz
watched our moooooviee
got sushi!:D
went homeee!:)

so hence, as you can see,
my life pretty much revolves around work.

D:
which would be an awesome explanation for my horrible exam results:)
when we secretly all know..its just me!D:

and oh yess!
MY STOOPID HAMSTER : PEANUT
KEEPS ESCAPING FROM THE CAGEEE
RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

kkkkkkkzxz
bye world!

Labels: updates.boyfriend.love.

acid tears.
Monday, August 16, 2010 10:16 PM

acid tears.

i miss how things were.
i miss how things werent forced.

why is it that all good things cant remain the same?

If it meant anything can it be so easily forgotten? If at one point in time it was every thing you ever wanted, lived for, loved, how can the magnitude of it shrink over time and eventually feel like it never existed?

i wish i could turn back time so things wldnt be like this

i wish my 11:11 wishes would come true

i wish, i wish, we could go back to the old us.

i wish, i could do what you want, but im not strong enough, and perhaps, im selfish.

(i'm sorry)

i miss you baby.

i miss our times together.

i miss us back then.

:'(

some things never change,

and by that,

i mean my love for you.

(as cheesy as it sounds, its all true..)

its going to be 10mths soon..300days.

no one wld have thought tt we wld last 300 days

maybe it died halfway..

idk what's going to happen next..

i just know..

i love you alot.

more than anything else :'(

i love you baby

and i miss you a whole lot

this past 24hours :(

especially now:'(

Labels: boyfriend.love.miss.emo.

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