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Sunday, February 24, 2008 11:27 PM
Sunday, February 24, 2008 11:27 PM
finally!ive finally fixed the damn template shit.gahh.great to be able to blog again.nt having a nice skin is such a bummer.makes me feel likent blogging.so anywayy.damn fuck up tired.and would you believe it?joash said i changed.like when i was having break and aft lunch while we were looking at the damn cool stationery section at isetan..he said i changed!?and i was like what do you mean and he was like i dnt knw.wtf.hw can you nt knw.when you said i change.?fuck.stupid.gahh.so i was like damn friggin pissed cos i kept asking and he was like i dnt knw.then i asked kor and kor was like yeah you becamemore AH LIAN!!?! and flirt.and i was like fuck you.its nt im flirt.dnt blame me tt they like me okayy.fuck.then i asked noraini if i changed and she was like no..then i told her wht kor said and she was like yah more flirt only..your thing spread until the whole place.and i was like fuck no.gahhh...sheesh.then aft wrk.i asked joash again and he was still i dnt knw.fuck.and i told him what kor and nor said. and he didnt say it bt he agreed with the flirt part.bt i knw thats nt what he meant by the fact that i changed cos he said it was just during lunch..so i gt pissed.like duhh.fuck.so nw im angry and grumpy.bt screw.i gt a FREE CARAMEL FRAPP from ZUREEN!!!:)hee..aft he made me do smthng nasty..nt saying..real embarrassing.haha.man.i love being a girl..ive gt like mango smoothie and double choc and my fav caramel frapp...for FREE and the yummy bananawalnut muffin from the mcafe guys!yayy!love love love my friends!:)bt its kinda bummer hidayat resign..gahhh.no mre crazy idiot to shout bay-beh and YOU!no one to make me laugh when im all bummed out..cos zureen's like diff..gahh..and hafiz is all im cool kind of thinggyy and all he goes to the bin ctr for is to eat and transfer songs.wtf?and kavidas is just like age gap.haha.andthen chor han is just erm..chor han..hahaha.he funny bt he is nt hidayat..get my point?and then andy is like saturday guy friend who comes only on sat to wrk..like wtf.at least hafiz comes sat and sun.haha.gahh..sucks..no mre hidayat.makes working boring.no one to laugh at and with anymre:(and wrse is at mos, there's no mre jayme and chowlyn and xiao mei..only kor...suckss...lalala.give me a break.oh btw.when i return to wrk aft i was ill i was so happy cos kor say i became prettier and lan jie said i grew taller!and the aunties missed me!haha!:)i love CHOON!!haha!the cutest ever.haha.haha!okayy okayy ego..soo..?haha.its me!haha..oh mann im getting so obessed with doublingg my letters and everyones copying!!gahh!tmr is the damn iso thingyy fuck.i just read the damn thing aft wrk.hope i remb!haha!
anywayy..feeling bummed out abt the whole posting thing..cos like actually im happy i gt into ngee ann mass comm cos i wanted it so badly likei was like pls pls i dnt want to get in to sa or cj i want ngee ann mass comm!bt when i gt the damn sms at friggin 649am!!! i was like oh.guess i felt stupid that i cldnt even get into cj..all fuck thanks to the damn 6 pointers for this.bt i was mre pissed with myself cos i mean if i did do much better for o's i mean i would def have gotten into sa and even poss put nj as one of my choice bt cos i didnt fucking studyy..so...argh.i cant get over it even mre when my dad asked me if iwas g to appeal to hwa chong!i was like wtf?i didnt even apply there.dnt even wannna go there if i did well to even go in..cos he like doesnt knw the damn point system thingyy.so then he asked if i was gg to appeal to cj..then i was like trying to tell him tt i applied np mass comm as third choice and he was trying to avoid talking to me.wtf.i knw he doesnt want me in tt course cos frm the start he said no i shldnt do tt course bt he didnt refrain so i feel damn fucked up cos i let down my dad cos he wanted me to go jc in the first place and even then if i did go poly i went into a course he didnt want me to go..so im feeling damn fucked up.and it doesnt help by hearing hw sme ppl could get into ac or even rj cos they appealed thru their cca.and im like wtf i could do tt too.cos i dsa to sa and gt it but stupidly rejected them fr three stupid reasons which are so stupid im nt gna say it.and so i totally feel stupid fr nt reappealing to jc.didnt even consider it cos i only though of reappealing to a diff course.bt iwas too lazy to even consider properly.and i regret it all.gahh.and i cant get over it.i keep telling myself hey im lucky i gt my first choice of course fr poly and plus i wanted to get into it so badly and tt its the 2nd hardest to get into cos the lowest cutoff is 9 and mass comm is 10 and tt joash says yeah..its so me..to go into the top few courses..and tt there are lots of degress which im intrested in to pursue like buisness..bt gahh its nt wrking cos i feel damn effing bad and lousy as a daughter and a gf and even a friend..stupid stupid stupid...i even frigging cried yesterday while drinking may fav carrot juice..gahh..can anyone out there in the universe make me feel better?and worst is my eng sucks and since mass comm is so like wayy up there( i think..)i dnt think i can match up to it..i will like FAIL HORRIBLY!!!and plus its damn hard to get into local uni with poly..bt i didnt wanna go uni anywayy..bt everyones like you cnt find a good paying job without a fucking degree and i cant fucking afford to go overseas..so FUCKED UP!!!fuck.fuck.did i say FUCK!?heck.im still gna applay for scholarship..gahh..i cant get over it.cant believe myself.i hate myself.so kill me.gahh..ahhhh..this fucking sucks.and joash is so not helping..okayy maybe..bt the problems we're having btwn us is adding to my list of problems..gahh..save me...someone..
p.s.it sucks that i found like the almost perfect guy bt i dnt love him.wtf is that all abt?
and i miss my bestie so so much...argh..will you stop being emo and be you again..its been like two mths..return to you pls..cos i miss you and though i knw your always there for me and i need you right nw i knw you wnt meet up even i f i plead you to and i just dnt knw whyy..apart frm tt your always busy with tuition and sch..argh..gosh pls marcus return to your crazy self..i still remb what you did when i told you glenn and i broke on christmas..i miss you marcus..:(
anywayy..feeling bummed out abt the whole posting thing..cos like actually im happy i gt into ngee ann mass comm cos i wanted it so badly likei was like pls pls i dnt want to get in to sa or cj i want ngee ann mass comm!bt when i gt the damn sms at friggin 649am!!! i was like oh.guess i felt stupid that i cldnt even get into cj..all fuck thanks to the damn 6 pointers for this.bt i was mre pissed with myself cos i mean if i did do much better for o's i mean i would def have gotten into sa and even poss put nj as one of my choice bt cos i didnt fucking studyy..so...argh.i cant get over it even mre when my dad asked me if iwas g to appeal to hwa chong!i was like wtf?i didnt even apply there.dnt even wannna go there if i did well to even go in..cos he like doesnt knw the damn point system thingyy.so then he asked if i was gg to appeal to cj..then i was like trying to tell him tt i applied np mass comm as third choice and he was trying to avoid talking to me.wtf.i knw he doesnt want me in tt course cos frm the start he said no i shldnt do tt course bt he didnt refrain so i feel damn fucked up cos i let down my dad cos he wanted me to go jc in the first place and even then if i did go poly i went into a course he didnt want me to go..so im feeling damn fucked up.and it doesnt help by hearing hw sme ppl could get into ac or even rj cos they appealed thru their cca.and im like wtf i could do tt too.cos i dsa to sa and gt it but stupidly rejected them fr three stupid reasons which are so stupid im nt gna say it.and so i totally feel stupid fr nt reappealing to jc.didnt even consider it cos i only though of reappealing to a diff course.bt iwas too lazy to even consider properly.and i regret it all.gahh.and i cant get over it.i keep telling myself hey im lucky i gt my first choice of course fr poly and plus i wanted to get into it so badly and tt its the 2nd hardest to get into cos the lowest cutoff is 9 and mass comm is 10 and tt joash says yeah..its so me..to go into the top few courses..and tt there are lots of degress which im intrested in to pursue like buisness..bt gahh its nt wrking cos i feel damn effing bad and lousy as a daughter and a gf and even a friend..stupid stupid stupid...i even frigging cried yesterday while drinking may fav carrot juice..gahh..can anyone out there in the universe make me feel better?and worst is my eng sucks and since mass comm is so like wayy up there( i think..)i dnt think i can match up to it..i will like FAIL HORRIBLY!!!and plus its damn hard to get into local uni with poly..bt i didnt wanna go uni anywayy..bt everyones like you cnt find a good paying job without a fucking degree and i cant fucking afford to go overseas..so FUCKED UP!!!fuck.fuck.did i say FUCK!?heck.im still gna applay for scholarship..gahh..i cant get over it.cant believe myself.i hate myself.so kill me.gahh..ahhhh..this fucking sucks.and joash is so not helping..okayy maybe..bt the problems we're having btwn us is adding to my list of problems..gahh..save me...someone..
p.s.it sucks that i found like the almost perfect guy bt i dnt love him.wtf is that all abt?
and i miss my bestie so so much...argh..will you stop being emo and be you again..its been like two mths..return to you pls..cos i miss you and though i knw your always there for me and i need you right nw i knw you wnt meet up even i f i plead you to and i just dnt knw whyy..apart frm tt your always busy with tuition and sch..argh..gosh pls marcus return to your crazy self..i still remb what you did when i told you glenn and i broke on christmas..i miss you marcus..:(
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