wrk today was funny..lan jie said the funniest thing ever..she said she dreamt tt kor bought me and her chicken soup..like wth?!damn friggin funny lahh..who the hell dreams of this kind of stuff??seriously i cldnt stop laughing the whole day..then i was pmsing all of a sudden during wrk..i didnt say it bt i has to do with kor..that shit ass!so im gna expose his secret!he wore baby blue undies today!haha!damn funny cos i shouted it damn loud to everyone and all the aunties were laughing and then i purpously said it when we open the door to the lobby..so all the custs heard and kor was like asking me to shut up!damn funny lahh!ahaha!blue undies!then then when noraini the hippo and chou tou fu came she asked me to go hm!wtf?she's nt even the mgr..and iskandar was like no no no dnt go hm..i need you to do cashier..so i was like wtf?she's nt even mgr so i was like telling lan jie he ma jiao wo hui jiao ke shi jin li suo liu sia lai..na wo zuo she me?then she was laughing at me and i was seriously damn funny cos the whole day lan jie was complaining tt noraini was a bitch cos she kept scolding kent on sat!which i woke up at 1.42pm!im so proud of myself!haha!anywayy..then i was joking abt chou tou fu..like saying noraini and dong dong and lan ji and auntie siew kee were laughing damn hard!damn funny!haha!stupid bitch!gahh..im sore nw tt i didnt wrk yesterday cos i didnt get to see _ _ _ _
anywayy just so you knw..i saw you looking at me frm up there a couple of times..and i want to tell you i hate tt smug smile of yours..i dnt knw hw we came frm being cls to simply nthng nw and i sometimes dnt knw wht to do when i see you..cos im pissed with you bt yet i still wanna be your friend cos i miss the moments we had..argh..cn you just give me a signal..its really damn fucked up lahh..if you ask me you are the one with no lan jiao..call yourself a man..argh.right nw if i see you i wanna slap you real hard!argh!hate hate hate!thank god im off tmr!i dnt have to see you at all..hrmph!you stupid tortise piece of shit!argh.argh.ARGH.your a big bully!
im emo.emo emoemo.i regret all the decisions i made..really do..seeing everyone so happy at jc makes me jealous cos i wanna study tooo!bt im sure i wnt regret when i go to poly and start studying..i mean i think this is really wht i wanna do..its gna be a huge challenge and im scared bt i mean everyone goes thru them and get over it right?so i guess i'll be able to..i hope..who cares?when ive friends tt will make it all alright:):):)i love love love all of you!and yayy!kayi is leaving ltr!22nd!yayy!tts like 20 days frm nw!:)yippee yayy!love love love!haha!i hope you delay it mre so you cn see me and aileen go np and get jealous then you'll stay!haha!i dnt care mann i hanging on to every single hope tt your gna stay on in s'por althought its incredibly impossible bt heck..cos i seriously miss those recesses we had together..those bio lab lessons when we didnt knw wht we were doing at all and those RAH moments!haha!i remb when you were in hospital..i was really sad:(there was no kayi in class or nxt to me for bio:(and when you were bk i was uber happy!:)thanks dude for everythng..for helping me out and everything!i love you BLOODY HELL!and i remb all the HI-LARIOUS moments!i knw it seems like i dnt care abt you guys at all in sch cos im always caught up with my outside life..im sorry bt i really do cre abt you guys okayy..?really do..tts why im gna miss you TONS when you leave so dont!haha!join me and aileen at np!haha!then we cn have lunch together!haha!ahh gahh..i dnt feel like writing anymre cos im so emo...and i wish everythng was different right nw..

never been more in the dark
never been this scared
never was so uncertain of what to do or speak
never been so alone
never been without YOU
never had mre thani could keep

and what i need nw i someone like YOU
cnt believe i didnt look you up
even before i knew how
you have waited for me
i know
now..now.

im thinking too much about it
cant ignore it all
all i can do is wonder if its worth it
cos its tearing me up..
pulling me apart.