sometimes the things tt ppl say they dnt mean it literally or word for word
they just feel like saying it
sometimes the things i say or type have no meaning whatsoever
i just type it cos i want to
so you dnt have to think so much into it.

ROAR!

im emo.cos of things tt have been happening.and worse.
the POTENTIAL LESBIAN PARTNER HASNT BEEN ONLINE FOR DAMN LONG!!
I MISS MARCUS!
ASHYRAF the GIRAFEE hasnt been to work!
HAVENT EXACTLY SEEN SHAH..i mean he's ard bt i hardly like okayy nvm i dnt knw hw to explain...
things are nt working out btwn me and _ _ _ _ like hw i want it to be
AYU hasnt visited in damn long
i keep getting pangsayed
and i hate the fact tt _ _ _ _ _ _K AND _ _ _ _ _N ARE BEING ASSES!
I DIDNT GET TO GO FOR ORIENTATION CAMP
and _ _ _ _ _ _ T is being a ASS!F YOU!:X

i told you i would be waiting at the other end of the tunnel
and here i am waiting..
i dnt even knw why i bother to..
cos its kinda obvious
that you wont ever go there
you probably wont even bother to go
see if what i said is all real
so i guess you'll never know
that ive been waiting for you
all this while
at the other end..

i looked at it..
finally had the courage to
look back on the things we said
the things you said..
just so you know
it ran sixty-six pages long
bt all i really wanted to see
was probably the last few pages
before we stopped our conversation..
and till nw i wonder if its true
if it'll ever happen..
cos sometimes i think tt its just
things you said
nt things you meant
i feel like a fool
saying the things i said
cos i meant them..
and in case you didnt knw
ive alr taken a step or even two
in doing the things i said to you that night..
i guess im gna wait
for you to do the same
just to see
cos im curious
to know if its true
maybe it'll by the end of this year
and it'll be like what i wanted
maybe it'll take ten
bt i think i'll wait
just to see
just to see if what you said is all real
and to give it a try
bt if you alr knw tt you wont ever be gg there
pls let me knw
cos if you didnt knw
ive already started waiting..
and i'll continue to..
oh..yes you bet i will

havent heard from you for long
and when im alone
or feeling all lost and lousy
i really just wish i could turn around
and see you smiling
and waiting for me to spill it all out to you
and then you'll hold me tight in your arms
and whisper in my ears that everything's alright
everything will be fine
and that you'll always be there like you promised
you may not be my special one
but i sure treat you like one
cos with you
i always feel happy
and you always make me
feel like the luckiest girl
in the universe
without trying;
just by saying the things tt you say
picks my up from the deepest hole
and i feel like im flying again..
right there beside you..

running away..
we cant go back..
im sorry i hurt you..
bt i swear to you
i really dont knw
what is it that i really want..
im sorry that i fooled you..
but i can tell you one thing for sure..
those days i spent with you
always remain in my memory
and i cant help but confess
that i flashback sometimes
and regret it all
or miss how it all used to be
and tears will just be streaming down my face
like a newborn baby..
im sorry..
its nt that i didnt wanna be with you
its just that till now
i all confused..

Every day,
I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head high,
And it's all because you're by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise

sometimes i wonder if the things you said are true
if the things you do are just a false front
because you dnt want me to knw the truth
or cos your nt ready to tell me the truth
or nt prepared at all
or afraid of my reaction
bt i wished you would just
be yourself
and tell me what is it that you really want
or what exactly is it tt is btwn us..

ROAR!for everyone of those up there its for different ppl ..so dnt ppl come accuse me or assume tt its for them or someone else they think is cos you dnt knw at all!im nt saying hw it wrks..maybe a few is meant for one person or wtvr..or maybe its nt for anyone its just hw i feel..bt im not telling hw it wrks!cos if its for you you'll knw or maybe i'll tell you..bt till then its for me to knw and for you to find out!you dnt even have to!unless you are really kaypoh or trying to control my life!

and ive been guai lately!!ive been hm earlier than usual and i said sorry to some ppl!and havent done some stuff in a while or been doing some stuff i havent done in a while or havent done at all!:)i think im maturing..haha!my foot..i still want my piercings and tattooes and of course i still always want my way!:):D

and dnt ppl try to piss me off cos i swear i'll make sure you regret it like shit!i have my ways!!
and im nt gna talk to certain ppl cos they have been lying!roar!you better make it up to me!:X

i shouldnt love you..bt i want to..