monday morning blues..:(
today i friggin woke up at 630!whe i slept at like 1am!gahhh..and plus the past few days i had camp which means alot of lack of sleep so i fell asleep like super easily on the bus and train today!!and i friggin busted cls to 20bucks on transport!argh.im so pissed.and i dnt want to say why!!argh!

btw..HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIUAN!I LOVE YOU BABE!YOU ROCK!DNT EVER CHANGE!HAVE FUN IN JC!:)

anywayy..lets see..
i was supposed to meet enna and amanda at the bustop this morn but amanda was late so me and enna went ahead first..and i was so friggin stupid to think tt me and amanda wld have the same timetable cos like same class right..?bt no...it doesnt work tt way..so luckily happened tt felicia was at hm so i called her up to help me check my timetable:i feel so swa ku!
so we had sports and wellness and screw the fact tt there was no hip-hop!!so i decided to choose btwn netball volleyball and dancesport..then i ended up pangsaying enna to join volleyball with amanda..sorry enna!!then then then aft tt we went ard ourspace@72 and the opening ceremony was seriously damn cool!and so is the place:)then then then we rushed off to our creative applied thinking skills class and there was like a whole lot of problem trying to find our classes and luckily brandon was like in blk 73 like me!so i was like really happy cos i wasnt alone!cos amanda had to go to blk 5 and enna had to go to blk 53:(so we gt split up again!grr!screw the sch!so then i followed brandon and his two friends!and they happened to be in blk 73 too!bt brandon was like in a diff rm frm us...so i was really lucky again!cos i found friends!haha!and didnt have to go round the sch finding the damn classroom!and poor brandon was left alone to find his class!haha!anywayy!thanks dude!thanks to you!i found friends in my class!haha!CATS was fun!!at first when mark and i walked in we were like crap..cos the teacher looked fierce..bt she turned out to be really nice!and oh yeahh sorry mark for making you on your lappie and then in the end you had to turn it off!sorry fr all the trouble!sorry sorry!anywayy!mrs visnu or smthng siad we cld eat and drink in class and when we do projects we can listen to music and go wherever in the campus we want!cos like she says its a creative class so your supposed to be creative!haha!and she is so cool cos she teaches indian dance in 7 schools!hee!my teacher is so cool!and she gt us to do this ice breaker game which was so fun!cos like youve to write your name sec sch and 3things you like bt one has to be fake so i put:
i like milk
i like htf
i like swimming
and like lots of ppl thought i the first two were fake!haha!and when mark saw me write i like milk for the first he was like is tt fake cos i like milk!haha!damn cute lahh!haha!cos i found another person who likes milk!hee!milk is nice!haha!milk is my bestfriend!anywayy then she told us abt what CATS was abt!and i listened!see..there are 4p's and like it stands for person press product and one mre!haha!see i listened!haha!then aft tt we did this quiz thingy to see if your left brain or right or equal!and mark and i are equal!haha!CATS WAS UBER FUN!haha!cos like mine was much better than wht i heard frm the other classes!haha!and i made new friends!haha!except i cant remb their names!other than there's a melody and mark and this china guy and this guy who transferred from tp!haha!then there's this girl who's called stephanie i think..haha!okayy nvmm..im nt good at remb names esp chinese names!haha!oh and did i mention mark is in volleyball too!so cool!haha!anywayy i was so shocked to see like guys in volleyball!and omg..did i mention mark is so smart!he gt 7 for L1R4 and he friggin joined ECE..guess he likes it!haha!and i made friends frm engineering today!haha!and today i foudn out deb is in ECE too!haha!coolioes!anywayy aft tt we had an entrpenur talk and aft tt i met ernest fr lunch and i went to draw 3obucks and friggin spent it and then we wanted to lunch at canteen 1 so we went all the way bt it was damn crowded so we went canteen 2 and it was friggin hot and far!!so we sweated lke crap..i had laksa tofu!okayy tt was random..cos i wanted to be healthy and eat tofu!but laksa is like hw fattening lahh..i feel dumb!bt i had my nutrisoy..!:)btw sorry ernest!sorry you were late..and btw its so cool tt ernest and i gt the same teacher for CATS!haha!:)oh yeahh!and sorry amanda and brandon and friends fr pangsaying!sorry sorry!feel damn bad..esp to brandon..cos during camp i didnt play 7-up and stuff although you asked a couple of times..sorry!anyhoos aft tt enna and i went ard and she accompanied me to settle my lappie stuff!and screw the earliest i get it is wed!:gahh.anwyayy guess wht..?dnt laugh!i signed up fr cheerleading hiphop and some community service thing!haha!i was too scared to sign up for touch rugby cos they looked scary and i was too lazy to sign up fr mre and i regret!cos i wanna sign up for hockey touch rug and drama!cos i miss performing so much!!anywayy i decided to go hm and wait for joash to call cos i predicted he wld call late..so..i went hm then used my lappie and then he called so we agreed to meet at np bustop!and i ended up being earlier although i was hm and he was at barker..like :so i went in first to look for ernest cos i was supposed to meet him to accompany him fr one friggin hr and in the end i gt pansayed and im nt gna say anything else.hrmph.then so happened kelvin called so we decided tomeet at sembawang fr dinner..and while i was walking out i saw joash!i thought he wasnt gna come cos he took forever and the bustop was damn crowded..anywayy he did!!:)hee..so we went holland fr i dnt knw wht reason..seriously no reason at all..then we went bk and ate chicken then went breadtalk to get mre food..then he accompanied me to commonwealth mrt stn then i took train to sembawang!12 stops!and i still ended up being earlier than kelvin so i walked ard sun plaza first and went popular to get mre stationery..then it was so stupid cos we ended up going newton to eat dinner!i was like wtf..cos i travelled all the way to sembawang when we cld have met at newton!so i traveeled fr like nthng!thats like hw i totally bisted money on transport..anywayy i totally screw up my dieting plans today cos i ate super unhealthy food:(gahh!time to workout!i shall start tmr nght..too tired nw..anywayy then i he sent me to orchard mrt then i went by mos to help felicia check her schedule and say hi to kor then i went hm!sorry joash!sorry i didnt have dinner with you!cos i alr had plans and at first you said you ahd to be hm early!and i knw you'll get into trouble if we have dinner!sorry!

anywayy guess who was finally online today..?johnathan!yepp!the potential lesbian partner!bt too bad he had to go sleep!cos he's gt sch!like tts so early!anywayy anyhoo..wtvr.im too tired to care.too tired to vent.too tired of getting fooled and knwing it.too tired of being taken advantage for and being taking granted for.i think i just need to withdraw frm the world..and like be alone.i think i knw what is it tt i really want alr.its cos im too tired frm all these.i think i need to live for myself and stop thinking abt others for a while.all i need to do everyday is wake up.go sch.study and wrk.eat.bathe.sleep.no more crazy life.alone.i want to be alone.i need to be alone.cos i need to breathe.tts they only way i can see myself being happy.cos the mre i get drawn into the crazy life i had or have the mre i get hurt.so no more.im gg bk to being a guai kid like in lower sec.zomg. i cant believe tt its actually what i wanna do..like for real.roar.

anywayy i promise i'll update abt camp tmrr..im too tired nw..