chill pill.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008 9:38 PM
okayy im like talking to myself.im nt weird.im just going through a tough moment.a life battle.by myself.
okayy bev.
take a deep breath..
nw friggin breathe it out
shout all the profanities and vulgarities
in that tiny little brain of yours.
now take a chill pill.
and quitting thinking and worrying so much.
dnt force yourself to hold it in.
and no two sins.
they are bad.
no two sins.no no no.
think happy thoughts
candied hearts and unicorns.
rainbows and fluffs.
sparkles and glitters.
doughnuts and milk.
the wall.(all of you)
the bench.(that was then.and its over.dnt think.)
the ring.(that was then too.its over.move on.)
no wait pause.that brings back memories.
now hug teddy.
im not gna think of anyone.
nt a single human being.
cos that hurts me even mre than i am hurt now.
think.think.think.
milk milk milk.
think:
magic wands and fairy wings.
splendid colours.
fireworks and kalediscopes.
the night i spent with you that started it all.
no wait.stop.
rewind.think:
bangles.yes bangles.
cup corn.
no corn reminds me of the tiny little corns in the rice
at the place you worked at.
thats over too.already is.i think.
i dont knw.
im confused.irritated.annoyed.going mental.
why dont you just dont think bev?
isolation and hibernation
is the solution.
okayy fine.i'll try.okayy fuck.im talking to myself.this is just weird.i think i need prozac.