its like 15mins more till i go on air and im so nt in a good moods/state tt imma break down anytime soon..like maybe..now!
its like so much stuff happened today..actually nt tt much..bt i just put whatever i knew at the back of my mind..like dumped it at the back..so i wldnt think abt it and just pretend tt nthng happened and none of its true..cos i seriously dnt knw who im supposed to trust
one thing is for sure.im so disappointed with _ _ _ _ _ and like...i wanna confront him so badly bt im nt gna..its like i typed out wht i wanna say and like i backed out on tapping enter..and yeahh..say wht you want bt i gt no guts to let our friendship end.you knw wht.smehw even wht you told _ _ _ _ _ pissed me off like hell and i cant believe you said tt..like i cant get why you would do tt bt like im willing to forgive you and i feel so stoopid..telll me im nt.ahhhhh..my head is pounding heart is racing.gg on air and im nt prepared tt much..and my partner isnt either.nt helping.really.nt.helping.im just waiting for locvid to end.and then like i feel like gg hm and like hugging teddy...gahh...time is passing super slow..and technically im nt looking forward to tmr..cos i gt hw to finish and stuff...ahhh...i want me teddy now..
and oh i received another message frm glenn.tts making me think even mre esp abt hw bad ive been...ahhh..i need two sins!
need need need!
i dnt even feel like gg sch anymre...im kinda getting pissed off in school nt just by sch wrk and stuff bt also ppl..so like i wish there was a friggin hole i cld friggin dig so tt i cld friggin crawl into and just be with teddy without having to knw tt ive gt responsibilites and shit.ahh.shoot me.