ive told myself to not go any further.that it is impossible.and im just thinking i do bt in actual fact i dont.bt thats not working.i so need to stick to the im keeping a distance thing.and not think too much.i shall.i will.i must.
i hate it so much hw thngs are now and i just wanna die.
i want xiao mei and chows now now now!i needa spill i needa tell them everythng..i cant keep it all to myself..i need ayu!its like her freaking heck care attitude and everythng else that keeps me moving and constantly reminds me to do what i want and what makes me happy and life isnt so fun anymre without seeing her for so long esp since she isnt wrking anymre..its like there is no one as crazy as her to do dumb stuff with..i somehw i dont regret the things i did cos of her..in the end it was up to me.personal choice.personal decision.i chose it that way.
i totally needa see the three of you!so much has been happening that even when i meet you guys...i dnt really have time to tell you the exact story..
and like i told kenneth im like friggin waiting fr the long holidays to come which is in like dec..gahh i want my holidays!i want my time with my babes..
and to a certain someone who may think im into you..i swear im not okayy.like seriously swear.so dnt go thinking that the thngs i do is cos im into you.i just do those things as a friend..and if you still dnt get it ask weixing.he can explain.
i so need to talk to _ _ _ _ _ now.its superly important.i want to trash it out.get it over and done with.im sick of those late night thinkings..
and i dnt knw whether i should go visit glenn and bryan today..since ive gt no sch..should i should i?!gahhh....
note to self!: NOT IN NP NOT IN NP NO NO NOT IN NP!ive so totally been there done that..so no more NP!