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confused.pressured.pissed,
Sunday, June 15, 2008 10:31 PM

confused.pressured.pissed.

woke up damn bloody early to go work.dnt even wanna talk abt it.anywayy aft wrk met bryan.sorry weixing fr ps-ing you!!!sorrryyyyyyy!!

i am feeeling so bloooddddyyyy darned shitass confused now.and someone is pressuring me like shit.even though i tell him to the face he isnt pressuring me..bt somehow i do feel pressured.i dnt knw what i want.im tempted.bt no.i cant.im sorry.i cant.i cant even believe myself for saying i would if i could.its like such a bloody bastard bitch thing to do.omg.i.suck.so this is why i am bloody hell pressured.its cos of this!roooooaaarrr.the whole damn triangle or pentagon or whatever you call it!!@^@&^#@(#@(*@(*(#()%$$^*%*

okayy im just remembering the damn bloody funny conversations i had online recently to like friggin cool me down!

i had the funniest conversation in ages.. last night with bryan..my emo buddy!seriously its so darn funny he doesnt knw what im emoing abt and im just having a retarded conversation with him abt rocks and garden gnomes and it progressed to camels and sand and macs!ahaha!

I NEED THE BESTIE TO KEEP ME ON TRACK.MARCUS!ROOOOAAAAAARRRRR.HELP ME STAY ON TRACK PLS...im scared to talk to you abt it, for fear of hurting you.what happened to december?and the i will send you and joash to school and meet you guys aft tt while poly hadnt started..that never worked out other than a few times..and the how we were all gonna still hang out after december...MARCUS!im missing you.

another thing.poly is killer.its like murder gg poly.so much for thinking i could have it much easier.actually what i heard is tt poly isnt tt stress or as much work than being in mass comm at ngee an cos the other yr1s or whoever who are/have been to poly said its okayy..i think its abt the whole being in the best media school in spore according to ernest thing..ahhhh...cherry was right.who ask me to choose such a tough course.seriously.asked.for.it.and its kinda crummy thinking tt the year it well almost half over for jc ppl and sec and pri ppl..like they end sch in oct.while i only friggin change sem in oct!roooaaarr!and like its not always abt the work tt bugs me.sometimes its like to whole social part of poly.ahhh..

omggg!MARCUS!this is why your my bestie!cos your there when i need you without me even saying it!its like all of a sudden you send me the over the rainbow song...without even knwing im emoing and all!this is so cool!omggggg your rock your awesome!!XD

tee hee!this makes me happy already!!!

bt im still feeling pressured and this is why i havent replied the sms...omgg im still disappointed in myself.

and oh i just remembered ann replied my email alr!omg this is making me feel so badd cos i took forever to reply her email!shoooots!omg ANN BOO YOU ROCK.I LOVE YOU.GIRL.JUST OPENING MY HOTMAIL AND SEEING THE TWO WORDS:ANN BOO MAKES ME HAPPPPPPYYYYY!!SERIOUSLY YOUR MAIL IS SO HOTTT..(ahhhaahah get it!?)

i love ann boo!counting down yo!17days till your back if im not wrong!!woots!jiayou for exams babe!LOVE LOVE LOVE!XD

i just realised.being confused and pressured is different from emoing cos when smthng makes you happy your nt really emoing anymre.bt you still feel pressured and confused cos nthng is solved.rooooaaarrr.

mental note! 15 days till S-I-X.

sweet.im just hoping for a miracle.till then.i will just try to be optimistic.

even if in the end i waited and hope for nothing.i wont feel tt lousy

cos ive got a perfect reason for doing so..its Y-O-U.

if i could

i'd grab that magic crayon

out of my pocket

and write my love for you across the sky.

but thats just all in my imagination

in my tiny little fairytale

and ive got to snap back to reality

but i cant..and i wont..

so baby lets get drunk

all the way till next december

cos baby even when im lost

i still know one thing.i love you.

im just waiting.hoping.wishing. to see that familiar face.lips.voice.smell. of yours.

you leave me intoxicated.you leave me wanting more.

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