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skank.
Friday, June 13, 2008 11:22 PM

skank.

seriously

like get your shit skank face

away from mine

i.hate.you.

get the point?

beverly is in a very bad foul mood today.

do not attempt to annoy her within the next 48 hours at least or you'll get it.

argh.roooaarr.i wanna bash your face and then hit you on the head with a bloody glass bottle!roooaar!skank skank skank!skanky little stinky skanky SKANK!

seriously.frankly.i dnt feel like being around ppl that much these few days.unless its certain ppl.bt other than tt.seriously no.i dont feel like seeing anyone at all.even if its for retail therapy.unless its with my girlies.

like.seriously.fuck.off.from.me.

i do not want to see anyone but joash,my girlies and some school ppl.

and anywayy btw kent, im sorry abt this afternoon.was really pissed you didnt apologise to johnathan..and cos you kept gg fuck on the train and like you shld knw what else you said lahh..it just really pissed me off.sorry if i was being evil.SORRY!

tmr is another f-ed up day for me.cos no one wants to work at night with ahem and ahem..so finee..i will have to bear with it..i.can.die.

today i went to lavender to collect my ic.and that was bad.bad bad bad.its lavender.fuck lahh.thank god the bloody building was at the other exit.if not fuck lahh.i would have broke down and cried.aft tt i met kent at bugis.and then work.saw mrs chua.thank god no hidayat.and i found out the screwed up gt transferred to great world..seriously.that was like godsent or smthng.bt no..she had to appear at night.omg.im gna like nt dirty my blog with the details.its.like.eww.

retail therapy is not working.i need something better.roooaarrr.

fuck.i need to stop saying fuck.

and i need a miracle to happen now.

whatever happened to miracles happen?

even once in a while..?

roooaarr..save me.please..

i just had this sudden feeling tt i wanna visit the morturary and go bai my ahkong and ahma..roooaaar.

misses.

omg this just makes me think abt more.

ahhhh..

whatever happened to

rainbows and unicorns

candied hearts

sparkles and fluff

candy floss and jellyfishes

the ones the shone and glowed

rainbow stripes and black silver and gold dots

carebears and powerpuff girls

butterflies and teddy

the sunrise and seagulls

sunsets and that radiant hue from your face

milk and cookies

doughnuts and mango juice

nutrisoy and carrot juice

retail therapy and mtv

wrestling and miami ink

our favourite instant noodles

smoke and ash

alphabet biscuits and tau sar piah

milk tea and mango ice blend

teriyaki chicken

omfg.i need to get a life.

anywayy yesterday got me thinking about how bryan was able to tell me everythng..like how he remember this and that.and it got me thinking how i could forget everything in an instant.i hate tt.i hate forgetting details like tt.even if its over.hate hate hate.and its like i really wonder how i can.i think my brain is so pweeny.i suck.im nt degrading myself.bt i really feel shitty and sucky tt i couldnt even remember such things..arghhh...roooaaarrr.

you know what.i think im insane.

like how last time when i never got to see bryan tt much.or like even just only getting his sms bt not seeing him

i would be so darn upset i cried.

i friggin cried while i was having lunch

and dad thought i was like getting bullied in sch

cos i was crying over lunch and while watching tvo.

its like last time when glenn went away to aussie

how i was gg nuts crying.i friggin cried till i fell asleep.

i had to force myslef to sleep to block out thoughts of him and get over it

esp the flashbacks

i was gg mental tt like for an instant everyone i saw looked like him :|

i know.freakky.and everytime i walked pass the wall.i would hope he appeared and prayed to God he would

and if he wasnt there i would be crying like shit.

and thinking he was near me or tt he wld suddenly appear.

well he did by lying abt the day he arrived so he cld surprise me.

and now its like

i keep imagining joash.

like his presence near me bt not there.

its like walking home alone at night.

i cant help bt turn around to see if he is there.

i cant help bt hope he is behind every tree i walk pass

and would suddenly appear from behind

like he always does to surprise me..

i cant help bt link everything to him.

everything.its like how the friggin earth revolves around the sun

and how my life revolves around him.

and in a sudden instant he's gone.

its like the whole earth is experiencing winter, and is slowly crumbling down.

ive been in so many.bt i only treasure these three.

i know you still care for me and still feel the same.

the apologies ive long accepted.

thats why i was ready to approach you.

you were then.

he is now.

im sorry.

i cant.

truthfully,

it could be a possibility.

bt i made a promise to myself.

that i would wait.

thats the first step that ive got to take

to prove myself wrong

and make sure im on the right track

like i said

im not gna play anymore

its enough

too much hurt and lies

be it you or me

ive told you.

i hope you get my point

i cant say it all directly.

its how i try to resist the temptation of that sin

and as much as i want to

ive to remember the ppl who ask me not to.

its difficult.its hard.ive succumbed.

and i hated myself for that.

i dont wanna make another mistake

even if i know it may not work out.

at least i know i tried.

even if its for all the wrong reasons

or reasons i thought so..

its okayy..

i rather get blinded.

all i can say is sorryyyy.....

rooooaaarrrr.i want to go sleeeeppp and be a pig cos i dnt wanna think/know.roooaarrr

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