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old habits
Saturday, July 05, 2008 1:04 AM

old habits.

confession: i picked up my other sin today.i couldnt help it.i know thats not a good excuse at all.its nt even an excuse.but.somethings i cant explain.things have been going crap.and im in this shithole down there.and fuck.a part of me wished i nvr started again.its like it still lingers on and it makes me so damn disappointed in myself.

like seriously.i wish some ppl would cut me some slack you know.like quit making life hard for me.its fucking screwed.from the start.so be a fucking human being and stop screwing things up for me.fuck it.

i told kor what happened just now.and couldnt stop crying.its like.i dont know lahh.fuck it.i cant believe i did that again.seriously.

like fuck it.as if idnt have enough problems.at home things are fucking screwed.so i dnt ever wanna be home.school is fucking screwed too with all the politics and screwed school work.fuck it.i swear.and i just had to get that call.fuck it.what the hell is wrong with my fucking life.its like as if it was planned to be all messed up.like fuck it.i can go fucking kill myself nowlahh.fuck it if not forr all the obligations i have and having to support dad.i would probably have jumped down the damn bloody fucking building.and yet he has to fucking give me a hard time when he fucking hell knows nthng.fuck it.i swear.fuck it.

you knw what i dnt think im ever gna kick those habits.cos my life is so bloody fucked up.

i guess ppl are right when they say once youve started you just cant stop.i guess its back to the days of the two sins.at least.that way i will die earlier or smthng.im just waiting to get hit down by a car now lahh.someone volunteer pls.

my only regret in life is not treasuring how perfect life was back then and taking things for granted.

so other than tt you can go ahead and kill me.

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