so come on and fly with me as we make our great escape

not so sunny sun-day
Monday, August 25, 2008 12:35 AM

not so sunny sun-day.

so today was a not so sunny sun-day

grr.

I HATE THE RAIN

IT RUINS ALOT OF THINGS

GRRR.

so anywayyy.guess what

set my alarm at 9

told myself nah

sleep in 5more mins

ended up waking up at 920.

work was at 10

yes.

i suck.

so this is why i love working at mos.

i can get there jsut in time

ahaha.

okayy so i ended up punching in at 10.02

ha.

anywayy i was being a cranky bitch practically throughout work.

cos grrr.

i wanted to sleep in more.

grr.

so.

kitchen

i cleaned it real spick and span

before i left for break

haha.

grr.

and then it got dirtied

me is sadzxzx.

haha.

count = 4

mmm..

ashyraf hasnt been working lately:(

maybe ite ppl are having exams

grr

havent been seeing andy for awhile alr

maybee its cos of his n-levels

sigh.

anywayyzzxzxz

went home real early today!

like i gt home at 630

onlined

showered

onlined

thennn

last minute plans

met the anchovy brothers

gab and kev

at ps.

watched death race

its niceeee

except kinda gruesome

with the blood and stuff

and i hate the effing bitch

she is worse than cruella de vil

or however you spell it

see!she is so evil tt i dnt even wanna knw hw to spellingzxzxz her namexzx worhxzxz

i am offically very shagged.

but i didnt fall asleep this in the cinema this time!

haha.

anywayyy bus-ed homeeee

174.with kev.

and yayy.home is kinda near from ps.

sooo..

i got home at like 11.45 :)

sorryzzxzxz i offlined without saying bye to enna and leslie!

sorryxzxzx

was rushing out!

imxzxz shaggedxzxz

but me no feel like sleeping yetxzxzz

anywayyy today.

i realised smthng.

maybee.ive gotten over it.partially.

and to another.

i think ive gotten over the wholeeee erm._ _ t_ed thing.yeahh.

cos i was sitting down there thinking.

how it even was possible

and stuffs

it was kinda weird

like maybe i was tired or smthng

but

like thinking abt it was kinda weird.

haha.

so like i was like erm pause brain

lets not go there kinda thing.

so yeahh.

more or less over that.

well i guess.i think.so far.

i think i vented alot of my anger today at work.

i was slamming the microwave and fridge doors alot

super moodswing-ey

and ahh.

sorryy lahhh

kor and lan jie are the bestttzxzzx

sorry xiao di!

oh yeahh sorry keann i was working and couldnt make you un-bored.

SORRRYY.

another time maybe..

anywayyzxz back to the pointzzx

im think im like 5% over the first thing i mentioned

idk

idk lahh

maybe i was jsut trying to block out thoughts of it

or i was jsut too like

idk

but yeahh

ahh.

forget it

neh-mind

idk what im saying either.

anywayzxzxz

its mondayy!

which means medicine returns:)

we neeeeed to talk medicine.

and omg.

today.like this morning and afternoon.

i remb why i was pissed off

it fueled my anger even more.

cos of like

these two sms-s i got today.

so fine.

i was being mean and stuffzxz about the first.

but seriously.

do you think i really care kinda thing

bt then again i guess i am suppose to care?

idk lahh

wtvr.

then the other one i got pissed with was like

argh

fuck it. kinda thing.its like.

seriously.fuck it.

but grrr.

idk why im still being so nice abt it lahh.

sheesh.

*slaps self*

i think we so need to talk

im referring to the sender of the second sms tt pissed me off

grr.

sometimes i think your taking me for granted

and ive really been thinking these few days

how different we can be

and maybe thats the reason

its nt the approving thing

its the

i jsut dont kinda thing.

i mean like

seriously.

fuckk it.

cos like seriously.

soon-ish i knw im gna really get so sick

of tolerating you taking me for granted.

but for now lets just say

im jsut trying to tolerate it

cos

really

i dnt want this friendship to end.

but like yeahh whatever

go ahead with your life

do whatever you want

ive tried

ive dne what i can as a friend

more to you than to many others

and well yeahh.

fuck it sometimes.

really.

random stuffs here and there much much:

it a black and white affair.and all i can do is say sorry.

please speak softly, for they will hear us

and they'll find out why we dont trust them

speak up dear cause i cannot hear you

i need to know why we dont trust them

explain to me this conspiracy against me

and tell me how ive lost my power

where can i turn

cos i need something more

surrounded by uncertainty im so unsure

tell me why i feel so alone

cause i need to know to whom do i own

i thought that we'd make it

because you said that we'd make it through

and when all security fails

will you be there to help me through?

explain to me this conspiracy against me

and tell me how ive lost my power

ive lost my power

outline of a storyboard with no idea

head first in the shallow end

and i apologize if i do not care

busy hands keep swimming

they dont like swallowing to the abstract motor

gonna make that motor hum, gottma make it run

forward seems like forever when "ever" is hand over hand over hand

the busy hands keep swimming

gotta make that motor hum

get it over and done

so much for the autographs

so much for the apologies

so much for the promises i never intended to keep

how does it all end up?

how does this story end?

i cant let go

i cant pretend

very im so friendly

very im so halloween

so this what i wanted

gotta keep those channels clean and other sobering themes

im drowning by numbers

my halo is bent

its a fat fucking lie

and so the abstract motor gives in

it says at least i tried

at least i tried.

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