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take time to realize
Friday, October 10, 2008 9:34 PM

take time to realize

i guess it only took some time to realize.

hi worldd.

im backk from two camps.

im utterly shagged.

and.

feeling extremly abnormal.

emo-nemo

its a mix of angsty.

emo

bawls eyes out.

and.

i wanna be left alone kinda feeling.

i want to tell someone

whats going on.

but yet.

i dnt feel like talking.

remember when i said i wouldnt touch that playlist again?

why is it tt i never fail to click it

and play the songs that remind me of you the most?

to you:

i just realized how emo youve been recently.and these few days, i realized youve changed.maybe for better or worse.idk why its like this.but im really missing the old you.when you werent like this.i find it harder and harder to reach out to you.and really.its affecting me.idk why i bother so much smetimes.

to you:

your emo-ness these couple a days has affected me greatly.idk why but as much as im high and happy at camp i still think of how you are and why is it that there is always nothing i can do to cheer you up.no matter how many thanks you say i still feel im nt good enough to be your friend.i really want to see you happy and this has really taken a toll on me.its has affected me that i myself am feeling like this now.

to you:

im glad we are fine now.i really am.things wnt be the same like it used to be.well not now at least.and it really makes me sad to see that there is still that gap.i miss you too much that i guess i cld finally let go of whatever i had against you.im sorry.and im missing the way we used to be.

to the most important you:

i still cant get you out of my head, out of my heart.

why is it so?it really kills me.

i want this to stop.

ive tried.

ive listened to what they said and tried

but until now

i cant.

i see you in him

i see you in every thing that i do

i see you in every place that i pass

i see you in those songs that played when it used to be us.

and.

all that i see is you.

and all that leaves is nothing but a lump in my throat.

and tears streaming down.

never ending.

lump after lump

i try to breathe.

and i wish i was gone.

and it hurts the most.

when you are supposedly being replaced

by those words that come out of their mouths.

and i think to myself.

when

how

why.

too many things

bugging me

and i wished i could

just going running up to you

hug you and kiss you and

tell you i love you

and

rant to you

and have you kiss all those sadness

thats bugging me

but now.

there's no more of that.

im on my own

and all that i can do

is rant to myself.

how.

do you expect me

to be

a friend to each and everyone of you?

im trying my best.

and i really feel like im not good enough.

BOOF.ENNA.AMANDA.

BOOF: im feeling really sad now.

wish you were ard, to give me one of those pep talks.

ENNA: wish you were there to tell me its okayy

and help me be practical about my problems.

AMANDA:wish you were ard to emo talk with me

and explain why things are the way they are and to heck care about them all.

I smile , you laugh, I look away
I sigh, you ask me why, I say,
Its ok and I am just feeling down
Your hand on mine I hear the words...
If only love had found us first, our lives would be different

So I stand and wait
I am just a man

Where would we be now baby, if we found each other first
Where would we be now baby,

And now I must confess
That I am a sinking ship
I'm anchored by the weight of my heart cause its filled with these feelings
I keep my true thought locked inside my hearts black box
It wont be found, it wont survive, through the smoke or the wreckage
So I crash and burn
I got a lot of things to learn

Where would we be now baby, if we found each other first
What would you do now darling, if I said these simple words
I'll wait, I'll wait...As long as you want.

Where would we be now baby

I'll wait
I'll wait

Where would we be now baby, if we found each other first
What would you do now darling, if I said these simple words
I'll wait, I'll wait...As long as you want.

Where would we be now baby
I'll wait
I'll wait

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