so come on and fly with me as we make our great escape

too much.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008 10:01 PM

too much.

i.am.so.angst.

i.have.issues.

extremly moodswing-ish

I APOLOGISE FOR ALL MY MOODSWINGS AND ANGST.

i really dont knw what is wrong with me.

i guess its too much things going at one time

idk how to handle them well

idk what exactly it is that i want.

idk hw to approach some of them without hurting anyone.

and i hate.

BEING NOT IN THE MOOD AND YET BEING FORCED TO DO IT

ie. homework etc.

i cant take it anymore

i swear i can feel myself going insane by the minute

and when i say the nxt thing imma say

i really mean it:

the only solace i find is when im sleeping and hugging my bolster and rainbowdash.

I AM SO GODDAMN MOTHERFUCKING NOT IN THE BEST OF MOODS FOR THE PAST WEEK PLUS.

I CANT TAKE IT.

I FEEL MYSELF EXPLODING.

ARGH.

to you my friend,

i wish you would put yourself in my shoes and see how i feel abt the way our friendship has become.

i wish you would put more thought into it.

i wish you would put things on hold.

yeahh i understand studies are impt and all and whatever other commitments you have,

but all i ask is to put 5mins aside and think abt what we've become.

i cant lie, but seeing our friendship in this state really bugs me.

when i try to approach you, all i feel is the distance, the coldness.

im trying to stay strong but whenever i think abt our friendship i always feel like im on the verge of crying.

and it doesnt help that i see you almost everyday.

and i cant fake the fact that i do feel jealous when you treat the friends ard us the same,

and me, just differnet.

argh i really had enough.

to you my other friend.

heyy it was good catching up with you, even though it was a mere 15mins.

but i swear it was good.

laughing with you

chatting with you.

but i still feel that distance.

im glad for all thats happening for you.

im happy to see that your happy

i hope that we'll be able to go back

to how close we used to be.

im sorry for all that i ever did

im sorry for being overly sensitive

and yet insensitive to your feelings.

i cant lie i wasnt upset over things then

i cant lie i wasnt angry with you then

but i hate the way things are right now.

i still love you my friend.

and i wished it wld just be the same again

bt why isnt it.

ahh.

im tired from it all

give me a break aight.

ekop-ekop i evol uoy.

im sorry youve had to deal

with my moodswings

im so so sorry

i feel so bad.

thanks for everything

thanks for caring

thanks for understanding

thanks for tolerating me

I LOVEEE YOU!

oh.look.

fall for you is playing on radio.

and marcus

just talked to me.

this is what i mean by everything comes to me at one go.

this is what i mean when i say imma explode

wont you look.

three more days.

heh.

LIFE SUCKS.

and it doesnt help

when ppl dont understand at all.

fuck.

(im trying. or at least i promise i will try to..for you and for me as well..)

Labels: angst., emo.

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