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losing faith
Tuesday, December 14, 2010 11:49 PM

losing faith.

with each day passing

im losing faith.

living in denial

of a miracle.

hopelessly waiting

shunning

hiding

blocking

denying

i'm growing fatigue.

it's too much,

and i dont want any of it.

ANY OF IT.

why cant everything come to a standstill?

this time not cos i wanna embrace what is now,

i just want to get away from every single fucking thing,

every single fucking person.

i want to fast forward to something better.

shit happens,

and i cant deal with it, i'll admit it

this time, i'm just not strong enough

have you ever felt useless, unworthy, just simply not good enough

no matter how hard you've tried?

you just cant do anything right? or it's never seen?

im sick of deluding myself.

im sick of living in pure denial

im sick of trying to live in oblivion,

when the facts are right there

staring in my face.

im confused,

im troubled,

im hurt,

stabbed, tortured, tormented, mind-fucked

lies, deceit, false fronts

i just want to hide in some corner.

i just want to be in a shell of my own.

i just want to escape.

i dont want to have anything to do with anything or anyone and i just want to crawl away.

i just need silence.

i just want to leave.

i just dont want to be tormented anymore.

everything's a joke.

my life is a pure fucking joke.

the walls are slowly crumbling

and im just a victim waiting for the walls to collapse

nothing.is.fucking.the.same.anymore.

what.the.fuck.happened?

why doesnt someone just tell me what is ahead of me?

cos right now,

its just all a mess

all a blur.

i just want to leave this fucking planet.

Labels: emo thoughts.

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