so come on and fly with me as we make our great escape

as the skies turn to grey
Thursday, November 12, 2009 1:44 AM

as the skies turn to grey

some days i doubt..
bt yet..
i still take the chance

the chance
the gamble
of being hurt all over again

and i ask myself over and over
why am i so foolish

the answer,
you should know..

i jst hope..
your not another
and..
you'll just prove me wrong.

Labels: thoughts.emo.

shoo monday blues
Monday, November 09, 2009 8:25 PM

shoo monday blues

today has been the epitome of all monday bluesss

sigh.

so,
once again
school sucked fucking balls.

and
within the last say..hour..
well k not jst today..
ive been thinking about stuffs
and sigh..
life truly has a way of fooling with me.

once again,
i feel that void deep inside.

i try to ignore it and
i try to mask it.

bt on those dreary bus rides
and
those moments where i lie awake in bed
i feel the whole world crashing down on me yet again
and over and over again
like waves crashing in
and folding over one another
enveloping that sadness and fear
that madness

yet again
i find myself wanting to
avoid all of these
and hiding away from the rest of this world
that has served no purpose bt to hurt and vindicate
that has caused jealousy and anger
that has caused all the sadness.

its funny,
really it is.

how you feel like
your on top the tallest mountain
for a second
and the very next,
youve been entrenched
right down to the bottom
and you burn
and burn
and sometimes you just rather
end it all, once and for all.

fckk this shit.

Labels: thoughts.emo.

21 guns
Saturday, October 10, 2009 6:13 PM

21 guns

Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

everything is wearing me down.

and, i silently watch by the side..
how is it that
none of this
even bothers you..

how is it that
everything collapsed

or maybe..
one by one,
those building blocks
were coming down
and what happened
was an AVALANCHE.

maybe its cos
im scared and afraid
i cant bear to hurt another
so words keep coming out

i think its better left
unsaid.

Labels: thoughts.emo.

starbucks and whatnots.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009 8:14 PM

starbucks and whatnots.

the last two days ive been bumming my ass
at starbucks at
northpoint to the pt
that im acutally
sick of starbucks
zzz

ive nthng mre to say
for the reason im bumming
its just basically
pisses me off.

thank god to two kind souls
the last two days
ive made my way to cck
ad back to yishun
bumming with company

the last two days,
i realised
alot has changed.
truly, alot

and yet, it makes me uncertain once again
about,
everything.

its really
easy to say one thing
and do another.

its harder,
to stay on track
its harder,
to abstain from things
you onced enjoy,
you onced,
had fun with..

its harder..
to change

its difficult,
to decide.

its difficult,
to make choices

its difficult,
esp when you dont want to regret it

its something,
when,
you commit,
its something,
when you try to change,
its something,
when you try to get
better in time..

and yet,
you look back,
and wonder
why you do all those foolish things

and yet,
its harder,
to have people
make you question yourself
why do you even bother
whether, its worth it still
or even anymore.

whether,
lowering yourself
and your pride and dignity
giving,
everything you possibly can..
for maybe,
absolutely nothing.

its tough,
figuring out
another person
and its tougher,
being together with someone
you cant even figure anymore
you,
cant even trust anymore,
you,
possibly cant even feel for anymore.

maybe,
its all in the thoughts,
or maybe,
its just you,
that wants to set free,
or that,
you see it going no where anymore
or,
you just feel none of it

the difference is great
the feelings completely different
so,
why do i even bother
or should even bother anymore?

gullible,
and hopelessly taken in..
but,
there is a time,
when,
for real,
i want to knw,
just where all this is going.

and, i guess
till then,
there is nothing much left to say,
nothing much left to feel..

and maybe,
it'll be goodbye,
and possibly regret..

but..
time heals all wounds,
whats left are the scars..
and,
thats how the story goes..

people moving/
fast-pace/
changing/
the world,
is revolving,
and what can we do?

there are those,
who get over pain
easily,
and there are those,
who will always feel that pain

that tinge of sadness and regret

and you can only feel for those in pain
and hate those,
who created the pain.

Labels: thoughts.emo.

revival
Friday, June 12, 2009 12:31 AM

revival.

thats all ive gotta say.

Labels: thoughts.emo.

the exception.
Thursday, June 04, 2009 3:28 PM

the exception.

it felt good to finally
to have a tiny bit
of what used to be...

but now,
i want more.

and im afraid
i will even want more of then
then what is now..

can we all just pause for a moment
and do wht we want
without having to account for them all?

today has been a listless day
feeling angst and bothered
and plain frustrated.

Labels: thoughts.emo.

if i say your a slut, you are one!
Wednesday, May 27, 2009 10:20 PM

if i say your a slut, you are one!

yaooozxzx bitches!

been very cranky of late

anyone tt irritates me or annoys me

is a slut!

gahhh
:(

angstyzxzx
but whatever

caught star trek today with the dope!:)

||_||

MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

thats the finger thingum!kekekeke

life sucks,
take drugs.

been wanting the sins really badly
but i have abstain from them for awhile!
:D

sighzxzx

at times,
seeing people,
seeing things happening,
hearing things,
thinking
makes me recall the past..

that is all so different now..

i miss the wild crazy times
weekends out
boozing
doing crazy things
without a care in the world.
doing basically
whatever i wanted to do
good or bad..

some songs,
they cant be replaced,
they cant be replaced with now..
they'll just forever remain as
memories.

they say
you're so naive..

i guess i really am
at times..

colour penciled drawings
me, and two of them happy
me, and the perfect one.
with those smiling faces...
me, and the perfect one,
with the small little others
all happy.

call them
imaginations.
to me,
they are.

imaginations -
to me,
things we think about
that we wish we could have
but never in our life would get.

life's too short,
maybe thats why
ppl commit mistakes
maybe thats why
ppl do stoopid thigns
maybe thats why
ppl sacrifice
maybe thats why
ppl do the things they do.

maybe its time,
but...
i dnt knw why i cant let go,
maybe im not strong enough.

Labels: thoughts.emo.

green eyes; blue skies.
Saturday, January 17, 2009 10:46 PM

green eyes; blue skies